Be Still and Know

When you’ve prayed and prayed and prayed and nothing has changed, or not much, at least not what you expected. Not what you suggested God should do, if He really loved you – and your exhausted. What then?

Surely the Lord knows every detail of this situation. Every. Single. Detail. He knows even more about it than I do so why doesn’t He move? Maybe it’s because I forgot to pray about it last Wednesday and yesterday? As if it’s all up to me. As if it’s my actual prayer that’s going to accomplish the miracle. I must persist in prayer or God can’t answer this request or solve this problem or do this miracle or heal the situation. But this is crucial. Doesn’t He know time is of the essence? But remembering to pray every single day and reiterating every detail of the problem to the Lord and offering up suggestions and hypotheses is getting very redundant and exhausting and I just don’t feel like doing it again today – or this week – or even his month, for that matter.

Is it ok to take break? God won’t forget about it will he? I only have so much emotional energy and it’s very depleted at the moment. I’ve even run out of scathingly brilliant ideas to give God on how to fix this. He doesn’t seem to be taking me up on any of my offers for help anyway. The hope horizon is starting to blur. Do I see a light at the end of the tunnel or don’t I? I DO believe but I’m tired. Can I just leave it in His hands and trust Him not to forget about me and my request?

So I contemplate working on it in the flesh because then I know that something is actually being done about it. Even if it’s the wrong thing. I see action and I feel action. There is just this need to be doing something. Anything. And I feel guilty if I just let the situation continue as it is while sitting around doing nothing.

Conundrum.

I need to believe what I already know. Be anxious for NOTHING but in EVERYTHING, with prayer and supplication and thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God and the peace of Christ which passes ALL understanding will keep your hearts and minds stayed on Him. To be honest, sometimes I feel that peace and other times I don’t. But it’s not about feelings. It’s about truth and faith in that truth.

What I know for sure is this: God is never doing nothing. God is working even when I am not. God is in control. God surely does hear my prayers. The Holy Spirit intercedes for us. Romans 8:26-27 “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.” Therefore, someone else is also praying for my prayer request. So maybe it’s ok to take a step back? Be still and know that I am God. But what if He forgets about me and my request? Can I take that chance?

I wrestle. I worry. I’m weary. I know better. Be still and know that I am God.

Don’t quit talking to God, just talk about something else. He knows and He’s on it.

Selah