Changes

Unfortunately, when we love and are part of a marriage and a family, we have responsibilities. Responsibilities to these people who are our life. Responsibilities to these people we love and more often than not that involves contributing to the family coffers in whatever way we can. Whatever way is available. Whatever way is necessary. And this usually involves work. I know God said that men would toil the earth the rest of their days as a result of sin. He also said that women would bear children in pain….well I have done my part haven’t I? As this world would necessitate this is not enough. Women must bear children in pain AND toil the earth. This hardly seems fair but who said life was fair? Maybe its because it was the woman that first bit into the apple. Eve, Eve, Eve….you have no idea what you have done.

Proverbs 31 also says that the wife of noble character will bring her husband good and not harm all the days of his life and that he would lack nothing of value so if toiling the earth along side my husband brings value to his life (and lightens his load) then I guess I have a responsibility to do that. In fact, I want to do that. Hey…its only for 5 minutes when compared to eternity. I can do anything for 5 minutes. Right? And its not as if I won’t benefit from working. It will keep me from getting old before my time…won’t it? And allow me to do Christmas this year. (I was already wondering how I would inform my family that I wasn’t buying gifts this year). But maybe I am getting ahead of myself….I don’t have any job offers yet.

If history has any value….I may never hear from these companies after the interview… once they get a glimpse of my age spots and grey hairs. This I know for sure. I left all this in God’s hands and HE will lead. He has a purpose for this and He will open doors no man can close and close doors no man can open. So I will don my professional clothes and hold my head up high and and answer those pretentious questions to the best of my ability. And who knows….I may be back at the office by the end of September.

I have had a glorious 6 months. Seriously, a wonderful reprieve. Maybe that’s exactly what was needed…a reprieve. A time to regroup and refresh. Maybe its time to pick up the mantle once again before I get too comfortable in this routine. I have had a lot of emotions to deal with this summer and I truly was blessed by this time at home but maybe its over.

Well I better go get ready to knock em dead. I’ll keep you posted.

Disclaimer:  I usually enter this process with fear and trepidation because I detest the process but every position I have held, I usually end up emotionally attached to the people and I usually thrive. I’m usually more than pleased with working. It gives purpose and mission. And the perks are always such a blessing. So I certainly don’t want to sound negative about the situation.  I just always have a hard time letting go of any season, especially one as rich as this summer.  It was a blessing. And possibly God wants to bless in a different way now. Plus I’d walk over nails and hot coals for my husband and family so I guess this is my ‘not so horrendous’  fate.  Lol