Calm – All – The – Way – Down

I went for a mammogram yesterday. Not because I wanted to but because my doctor wanted me to get one and its hard to find a female doctor these days and I didn’t want to put her off and have her quit me,  so I found my requisition from last summer and made the appointment.  It was much quicker than I have ever had before….just 4 pictures and voila…done.  The technician said if you don’t hear from us by Friday you are good to go.

Next, I went and applied for a job at Pottery Barn.  Originally my last resort plan but now its starting to sound very enticing.   My EI is coming to an end and I have to find a way to earn a living so I don’t have to become an extremely thin hermit with no food or gas available.  I guess Mike could sell my car.  I’ve been seriously wondering what life without a phone would be like.    I wouldn’t need nice nails as I wouldn’t need to look professional sitting alone in my basement sewing up fabric and Cricuit cutting paper.  Forgot to mention I wouldn’t be meeting y’all at Starbucks anymore either.

I bit the bullet and went in and handed in my application.  They’ve had a sign  (and application forms) at the entrance of the store for several weeks now.  I vacillated and vacillated as to whether I should take this final step.  Was I giving up on God?  Was I giving up on myself?  It didn’t go unnoticed that this was a deviation from my regular skills and employment.   The hiring manager I talked to said that someone would call me for an interview.  So I turned up the ringer on my phone today and carried it around with me in case they called.  If my only option is to work retail, then Pottery Barn is the place.  I love that store.  My own house if full of Pottery Barn.  I can’t go to the mall without taking a stroll all the way to the back and back again.  I have all their catalogs.  I first heard about Pottery Barn on the popular sitcom, Friends, years ago.  It truly is one of my favorite places to hang out.  Once my sister and I sat across from each other on in one of their couched living room arrangements, complete with throw cushions, silk greenery, coffee table and centerpiece and had a lovely conversation for about an hour or so, as if we were sitting in a swanky hotel lobby not a furniture store.