Change is Inevitable.

I have chosen to give my blog a new look.  The reason for this is that I am in the process of giving my life a new look.  I’ve finally decided, after much deliberation, that I would start living my best life.  What am I waiting for?  I am 61.  Probably in the last third of my life.  Why not go out with with grace and a legacy?  I’ve been holding back and back peddling in regards to my life because……well that is a very good question.  Why am I not just charging forward and living the best life I can?

For so long I have listened to voices that tell me, you can’t do that.   You don’t deserve that.  You can’t have that.  You can’t go there.  You can’t think that.  You can’t believe that. That’s too dangerous. That’s too scary.  That’s too risky.  That’s impossible.  That’s foolish.  That’s not practical.  You don’t have time.  You don’t have talent.  You don’t have skill.  You don’t have education.  You don’t have influence.  You don’t have fame.  You reached your peak…its all downhill from here.  It can’t be all down hill from here.  I can’t have reached my peak because I feel I’ve barely begun.

So no more sitting in the corner waiting for someone to ask me to dance.  No more waiting for the report card looking for A+’s with honors.  No more fear of the pink slip.  No more thinking someone else cares about my dreams and goals and wants to make them happen.  No more letting people and life intimidate me.  I want to be the Proverbs 31 woman that is clothed in strength and dignity and can laugh at the days to come.

Its time.  I think the older a woman gets the less tolerance she has for not getting it right.  Less tolerance for not getting what she wants from life.  The less tolerance she has for toxic people and ideals and anything that is dragging her down.  At least that seems to be my experience.   I’m not willing to sit back and let life happen and just react to whatever it throws my way.  To pick up the pieces of lost dreams and a broken and bruised heart.

So I am attacking every area of my life.  No stone will be left unturned.  My creative skills and calling.  My health.  My relationships.  My finances.  My time.  My ministry.  My legacy.  What am I leaving as a legacy? That is the most important item.

I always start of each New Year with a word from the Word. This year that word was stewardship. I’ve got four months to get  my stewardship  act together…. or a lifetime.

One of Steven Covey’s principles in the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People is to ‘begin with the end in mind’.  He even goes as far as to suggest a person writes their own Eulogy.  What do you want people to say about you when you are gone?  How do you want others to honor and remember you?  Then that is how you should live your life (with the end in mind).  Its not morbid at all…its wise.  None of us is getting out of here alive.